Considering the Alternative

Considering the Alternative
By Gene Davis


`I am on my own, the few people that I know that could donate and not really affect their lives have ignored my efforts when I beg for help from strangers the feeling of  being worthless really hits home.  Everyday it's a struggle to not consider the alternative.

A few years back I used to have good days, now I have about an hour a day before my chronic neck and head pain kicks in and if I haven't already taken my pain and mood pills I am in for a real bad day.  

The real kicker is that I know I could be fixed, they do minimally evasive surgery where they remove my arthritic bone spurs that dig into my neck. 

Since I am considered disabled  Medicaid will not cover the cost. The problem for the past year I have known that their is a way I could get out of pain. This has given me a glimmer of hope, so I spend my hour a day trying to beg from anyone I can think of .... 

All of the major charities do not help individuals, so I would have to come down with a major disease in order to get any help. I have slowly been preparing my wife and kids to get by without me, today they are out at the Interstate Fair a venue that my family would have made me go before today. 

As my hope fades away I am considering the alternative.